C-o-n-solidate

In lieu of the 2011  around the the corner.   I will be doing alot of consolidating of personal things. To direct my life into the path of my ambitious dream with more of a concrete foundation. Why not jump start this with a BANG! Every year, people make resolutions of what to accomplish before the 12 months is up.  Within the past 5 years of making resolutions i have kepted the 4 out of 5. Granite, this year i don't think i made one.    Life is definitley passing by quickly as you age.   Im still all for carpe diem, but my life is no where it should be. My 8 year plan after high school is slowly surpassing. Im scared, yet fortunate enough that I still have grasp on my future.  I need to be strong and put it into first gear.   Thanks to papa deux for the constant reminder of power of prayer.  Im in a spot of pushing forward, stopping the shenanigans for a little bit , and put extra effort in finishing my studies.  I usually don't like to share deep personal goals as there might be a chance to jinx myself. But i will share one,  its been on my mind for the past week. The word just seeps within my skin.  Which is FRUGAL, I hope to do less spending this year on unneccessary things for my sake and sanity. In turn, just rearrange things in my closet, use the resource i have and let my creativity outshine.  Ever since the word has crept in my thoughts, I seem to be browsing online for a designer bag. Yes, brand whore indeed.  Yet, I talk myself out of even at the thought of really coughing up that cash for one single fabulous piece versus of how much shoes or traveling expense it can go towards to. But in reality, i should be dispensing it towards my credit cards. So the evil things can finally be diminish and erase any evidence of my past expenses.  I can honestly say, i have 2 designer purse, in which only one was purchased from my own pocket. While the other was passed down from my mothers closet. I love it, but I believe I talk myself out of purchasing them due to the consequences of the aftermath.  I think i should invest in my future before I should invest in my closet.  Back to the routine, next week. Im excited! My body seems out of the loop and im suffering because i've had a chest cold the last 2 weeks.  But happy new year! Im signing off till next week..

So long 2010, thanks for the memories and everything else i won't miss!

This year is almost over,  the holidays is about to pass.  As soon as I came back from vaca, a 60 hr work week awaits me. It was one of the most longest week I've had in awhile.  I won't go into details about work, since its a classified to be confidential. N-O i don't work for the gov't.  But lets just say,love your friends n family and count your blessings.  Christmas was great, happy to spend time with the fam bam, ate good food. One good thing about working alot christmas week was i didn't stuff my face. So guess what I didn't gain any weight. But im making it up..lol

Reflecting back on this past year.  2010 started out in New York, It was a blur to me, aside for school, memorable events with friends.  Alot of personal things happened this year that could account for major melt downs.  There was alot of tough spot this year, I think i felt alot of emoitions that i never imagine i would deal with concerning the major "stress" (caused me to have grown grey hair at 26, really..aye), school.  But by the grace of our lord and wisdom from my father. I got through it.  With 2011, at the end of the week.. I have a feeling that its going to be a good year...

My family - words can't even express how lucky i am to have you guys in my life. My top supporters.

My Friends -
Who I've gotten close too just this year.  My fav koreans, Katie,Amey. The reality check crew that have pulled me through realms of my stupidty have enligthen my life for the better. I feel so lucky to be bless to have gotten close to you guys and to add to my extended family.
This is being repeated during this excerpt. But I seriously have the best group of friends around me.  Although, some are away it never fails that when we all get together its like as if we haven't been separated.

I've been told that most woman will have 2-3 TRUE friends by their side. But i can attest to that phrase that i can honestly say that i have 6 friends who i know i can depend on for ANYTHING.

Everyone who I surround myself with are people who i love,respect and will sacrifice anything for.

I just want to say THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU!

au revior las vegas

My week has been one big ball of fun!  I went with my fav koreans. They are my gochuchang to my bibimbap!  Its nearly been a year since i've gone on vacation, it was in fact around this month that i went to New York to visit and be with my other good friends.  So many eventful things happened for the short amount of time we were there.  Finally, went and watch some shows.  They were Jabbawockeez at Monte Carlo and Cirque De Soleil Mystere at Treasure Island.  Jabba was definitley my favorite out of the shows we saw.  Not only were they entertainining this would mark as the second time seeing them. But to my luck we were sitted fourth and center which was FANTASTIC!

5 days wasn't nearly enough, I ended up being under the weather. Which due to that I opted to stay at the hotel to get some sleep.  While the other 3 roam the strip which to what i was told was an adventure in itself.  The rest of the time there was spent shopping, photoshoot with shadari moon, korean food overload..im sure im missing out something. But as soon as we got back in town , we all had 24 hours to get settled in and headed to jingle ball.  Im going to sum up that experience with pocket shot, falling over chairs and screaming out to FEM, and also getting an asthma attack at the end of the concert. Which that 15 mins with them was absolutley worthed to have the asthma attack.  Me and Katie were total fan girls it was a sight to see! This vegas trip was a blast. I can't wait to go again with these girls!

its been

a fun week! Took vaca, ended up heading west to Las Vegas with the girls. It was infested with Korean food,soju,jabbawockeez, and much more. It was an eventful time. Not much on relaxation  because I was on the go half of the time. Than back to the 918 in time to watch FM , it was the best 15 mins of my life.  I have been such a fan of these boys since they had their old tracks on youtube. Me and my friend katie were such fan girls. Seriously, kinda embarress but very well worthed. It was just sad it was only 15 mins. I was literally screaming my head off, and ended up with an asthma attack after the concert. But it was well worth it! I know crazy. pictures will be posted soon..

my grown up christmas list..

Im very fond of that song, i find myself listening to various versions of the classic traditional christmas songs. It gets me in the holiday mood. Anyway, I took my finals very early this year and i've found myself with a little extra time after i get out of work. Instead of utilizing that extra time to hit the gym or straightening things at home.  I end up being glued to my bed since its been very busy at my job.  Nothing seems more comforting than the rustling,soft feeling of your linens against your skin after a long day of work.  It seems every year when this time comes around, i think of what i wish to have as a present. Honestly, the older i get the less materialistic thing i yearn for from my family,friends. I feel as though I am a grown up and if i wish to have that item than I will buy it myself.  But of course theres no way i would turn gifts away. I guess I just yearn for the basics.  Give me pajamas and i will be one happy girl! 2 more days till my official vaca, ah yeah!

yahoo!

its finals week..so ready for break.

2 weeks till im on vaca..


yippy!

ah, weekend

is finally here, unfortunatley due to my idiocracy. Im going to be working the next week or so  paying for the mistake i've made. Its the holiday week coming up, I actually planned to take it easy. But I'll be working like a mad woman. I knew it was too easy to do. I should have forseen this. Oh well

Few more weeks, classes is over. Im excited about that. Its friday, I've decided to work ahead of my weekend schedule. So the rest of the weekend Im left to finish a paper,watch HP,and help a good friend move. I aced my midterm, oober happy about that..

bunchacrazies

work.school.gym and repeat..


That has been my schedule for the last month, i've finally have a routine down.  Im seeing results. I feel really good, more energy. Its still early in the game, but i've never been so serious till a couple of months ago. I've gone to the gym the last 8 months. But its only been 2 months since i've really been gunho about it.  I've been hitting the gym pretty hard this week ,6 days yay..

I believe it when people say that gravity will grab a hold of you the older you get.  Although i've had a problem with that since i've quit soccer so many years ago.  Im really determine about this. It takes dedication mentally and physically. Im so sore right now that it must be a sign im really doing something right. I've turn to the gym to find some peace and solice from the crazy things that have been going.
Since, The day that a big burden has lifted up from my shoulders a couple of months ago. Im reminded to not take life to seriously, and that there are far worst things happening in current events than silly problems that i thought would be of more important.

So, since i've been hitting the gym i've also started this crazy diet. I will share in 4 weeks if its successful and i will tell you the secret of it.

There are things that no matter how hard i try to understand, I will never fully comprehend as to the reason behind it all.  The people that you think you can count on has suddenly become strangers to you. With alot of self reflections, I try to see if it was something about me. I know no one is perfect. But when people start questioning your character and credibility as a human being isn't the line be cross way to far.  Boundaries should be set before hate becomes in the way.

oh november!

2010 is flying by quick..

Where has time gone and where is the stop button. 6 more weeks till vacay,YAY

School is almost done, not sure what to take next semester

Still thinking if i should head to the philippines in May, hmm

very random post, I'll try to clarify things on the next post..

oohhmmmaaaggaash..

Day 2 of no salt and cutting out bad food..

Bfast
1 cup of coffee
oatmeal

snacks
5 grapes

lunch
saute bokchoy & half cup of rice

working out is getting better. I feel the inches coming off..yippy!
Im so cranky right now, especially since its a drastic change. School is almost over this semester.
7 more weeks till vacation, YES! I can do this..=)

thrilled

to say...


Rah,ah,ah,ah
roma,roma,ma
gaga,oh,la,la

yess...Ladies and gents


I get to see Gaga in concert in BOK...and whos excited...MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Hump day

The other night i was very estactic. So much I was able to share the giddyness of it with a close friend of mine.  When xanga was at its peak. Everyone and their "crew" was on it.. It only took me a couple years to be able to log back in. But it was good to go back, read my thoughts from so long ago. Reading some post made me cringe with embarressment, laughed till i had tears rolling down, and made me realize how much I've grown yet how much I have taken a step back at some things.

Season 2 of Glee came on last night. I'm gleeful! Yes , i was singing along to Jay'z - state of mind and Gaga's - Telephone. I would like to catch up on season 1. Im afraid it will take me forever.  Priorty of school is taken over as well as looking for a part time job. 

wake me up when september ends..

I've been seeing this among my friends numerous time the last few weeks. Now im saying it!

I'm currently cramming, and i don't know why i do this to myself..a paper,a quiz and a test all due by midnight in 2 days. Why im somewhat freaking out, because i haven't been the ideal studious me as i have been with my previous courses. Thats because im not taking a science course this semester. Im finishing up my first major, ya long time coming but 3 more classes and im on to the next...

But yeah, on to the next...i haven't been to the gym in 2 weeks and i can tell significantly..my body is missing it..oo-mm-gee

feeling..

a bit sluggish, out of it, ah its a manic monday..

feeling nauseated by the things in life. I would like to take it out on a shopping spree. But even that won't help me..3 hrs of sleep. Oh my, Thank you stress I loathe you!

lentils, i think so!

Im always up for trying recipes with the condition that its semi easy and fast. I've loosen up to that idea. I found this recipe couple of weeks ago. It was lentils, what did i know about lentils? That it was protein and related to the bean family. Well i decided to call a good friend of mine, Brandy whos an acute care dietician. When i spoke to her about my findings and curiosity of about this little pellete looking thing, i must admit i was super excited! Long story short, its very healthy. Its protein and very rich in fiber. So with that said... I introduce you to my first vegan entree..

1. take 1 cup of lentils boil them in vegetable broth for 25 mins. Add some salt

2.Chop 3 stalk celery,3 stalk green onions, half of a yellow onion,tomatoes(were a substitute for julienne carrots)

3.3 tbsp of flaxeed and half a cup of water. Mix it and set aside (this will be like the glue that will hold everything together)

4.lentils will absorbe the liquid, take it out and put in a large bowl, saute all of the ingredients in number 2 as well as put some garlic cloves in it. Add pepper

5.After 6 mins, add some almonds. (once again, almonds is a substitute for walnuts)

6.Add the veggies in the bowl of lentils,mix well. Add in a cup of panko bread crumbs, than take the flax seed mix and add it in. Mix it well.

.take a plexy glass or any baking dish, spray a little pam. Put in the lentil mix and baked at 350 for 40 mins.

7.VIOLA,DUNZO and yummy!

*** when you put the mix in the baking dish. In a separate bowl,take 2 tbs of ketchup,1 tbsp of maple syrup,and 1 tbsp of balsamic vinegar. Mix well and spread over the lentils..Than bake it!

2 in 1

day!

just made my first vegan entree, oh my! Pictures and recipe to follow. =)

sunday rants

like nails scratching a chalkboard is how annoyed i am.

Every little thing seems to be working my nerves today, im starting to think theres something wrong with me. Superbitch mode on full speed.  Im pretty sure its this rediculous August heat. Its been on full swing since June, ..Dear Fall, please hurry..

Classes just resume, i feel pretty unaccomplished..26 and just now nearing the end of my associate. What the eff, which btw i have nearly 100 credit hrs under my belt. I should have my bachelors almost finish with that amount.  But noo, instead i chose the path of working while going to school, which still makes me broke.

Turks and Caicos

I told my friend katie i am in need of a vacation STAT away from the great plains..We were in talks of a cruise to the carribeans in the beginning of the new year

These two pictures shown are the destinations we were going to when we were planning our cruise. I still want it to happen. As of now its on hold. I'm on vacation lock down, but i don't think thats going to last very long. I need to have a mental cleanse to get some clarity and relaxation.

Nassau,Bahamas
Its the Atlantis Resort

Th

You just have to have a little....

Faith is the realization of what is hoped for and evidence of things not seen. -Hebrews 11:1


I look forward to sunday mass now. Today the sermon was over Faith, its ironic how the topics have correlated to my current issues.  I believe that he listens when you are asking for he's help.  I believe he will give you an answer. It may not be the answer you are looking for and it also may not be answered in a prompt manner.  You just have to have faith in all the things hes bringing you to face.  The power of prayer has gotten me through some pretty tough times.  I thank him for not ever leaving me behind.

Dean Martin & paradise avenue..

Im so done with this HEAT,ugh. All i want to do is stay in doors and clear away from anything that has to do with outdoors. Sticky,humid, and just plain miserable! Hello Fall, im ready for you and maybe Winter too..

There are somethings..

...im yearning to do but feel like i can't attain at the moment until i can further my finances, deepen my knowledge, and finish my studies..Some of the things that i wish to do in my lifetime that are a part of my bucket list is;

1.skydiving
2.backpack through europe
3.spend a summer or 6 months in a country that im not familiar with
4.finish learning japanese and korean,also brush up on my tagalog
5.i use to love wearing heels, after a hiatus in trading in my pumps for everyday hospital shoes..I should be properly train in how to walk in one..haha
6.ride a scooter through italy's country side.
7.go on a medical mission trip
8.make a difference in a person's life
9.finish college
10. paint on canvas and have it displaye at an art show

This is only a portion of the list..i still want to maintain a bit of privacy. While letting you viewers in from my perspective..good night and hello thursday!

..finish

This will probably be the last blog i will attempt. I promise to mold it into my work of art. So in the mean while i figure out how to personalize this with my own stuff. I will continure to update with my happenings of my life.