waiting, and more waiting..

Every time, I have an urge to blog i seem to get a writers block. When I do have an awesome title with an actual objective words to follow. I don't get to share it.  Its been 3 months into the new year.  Things aren't as mundane lately as it usually would.  In fact, its that time of the year when im awaiting to get into a program again. I receive a letter to go into an orientation for Program A:, I went, found out my rank in that list.  Im not going to lie, I'm so use to being a pessimist because of being rejected the last few times. I don't feel anything for it.  I don't want to get my hopes up. Although, alot of things could happen as the director says, theres just that innate feeling that always gets me. A cross between a failure and angered feeling.  But have faith because im not going to give up!  Program B is still in the works, but who's to say i am still out of the running for both. I'm keeping faith., and lord jesus help me.

Oh,its Ash Wednesday all week I've been thinking of things to give up or do better in.   I know people are giving up things that they have an obsession for.  I try to have a list that will better help me through this season.  Like what the priest said, if he can do it for 40 days, why can't we? I will be conscious of this thought until its easter.

Random thought: 

met a former nfl player, eye candy seems to be having an effect towards me..*grins*

revive..

Have you ever studied for so long that when you are on a verge of sleeping, although you can't afford to shorten your study time decide to pop somethin in your mouth just for the sake of keeping awake.  In lue of the endless chapters i have to go over decide to munch on a "cutie", for some reason since i've bought it this past weekend. Its tasteless, its a good proportion for a healthy after 6 pm snack.  Now im fully energize and ready to finish this chapter tonight!  Ah, as i was reading i was thinking. Why could i have not chosen something more artsy. 

111..2011

January has officially been a very cold month already. With temps hitting the single digits in the evening. Its brought memorys from my time in new york. Especially, when i was walking in and out to my car at school I was bundled up. Seriously. ugh..

Its only the first week of class for the spring, I already feel like a month has passed by. When really its only day 3, i've started ahead of schedule.  Hmm..I've found myself slightly complaining about some things with each course.  I know i shouldn't and just maintain my concentration to just get the job done. 

Its going to be an eventful upcoming weeks with the former southerners that are now east coasters coming in. Also, my birthday. But since i'll be busy with school I can't even begin to think about festivity. Still in the work out mode. Although my diet has been an epic fail. I tell myself the next day is a new day.

ah, weekend

is finally here, unfortunatley due to my idiocracy. Im going to be working the next week or so  paying for the mistake i've made. Its the holiday week coming up, I actually planned to take it easy. But I'll be working like a mad woman. I knew it was too easy to do. I should have forseen this. Oh well

Few more weeks, classes is over. Im excited about that. Its friday, I've decided to work ahead of my weekend schedule. So the rest of the weekend Im left to finish a paper,watch HP,and help a good friend move. I aced my midterm, oober happy about that..

wake me up when september ends..

I've been seeing this among my friends numerous time the last few weeks. Now im saying it!

I'm currently cramming, and i don't know why i do this to myself..a paper,a quiz and a test all due by midnight in 2 days. Why im somewhat freaking out, because i haven't been the ideal studious me as i have been with my previous courses. Thats because im not taking a science course this semester. Im finishing up my first major, ya long time coming but 3 more classes and im on to the next...

But yeah, on to the next...i haven't been to the gym in 2 weeks and i can tell significantly..my body is missing it..oo-mm-gee