The last few weeks leading up to today, has been a blur.
My life, Especially my brothers life will forever be change. He lost he's best friend 2 weeks ago.
Its still unreal that he will never be around. Life is once again presenting us that life is to short. Words can't comprehend the pain and loss we all feel. Its a day to day struggle, Somedays he's infectious smile, or i can vividly hear he's laugh. Even reminscing about the good memories. Though, i always thought he would be around till we all got married and had kids, i always thought he would be standing in the altar as my brothers best man. They have a friendship that last longer than a marriage, over 20 years now. It breaks my heart just at the thought of him being gone , and how we are lucky to have known him. This fresh and raw feeling i don't think will ever go away. Its harder to know that a good person like him had an untimely death. Its even hardest to comprehend that my brother not only lost a best friend, but a brother.
Oh the kruds,
So my asthma has never been bad or active shall i say until 2 years ago. But this past weekend has topped it all off. My asthma has turned into something scarier than i've imagine. I never once thought it would come out like this. But the feeling of restricted to even go down the hall in my house has really been a wake up call. I also found out that the city i live is #5 worst city to live in for asthma. Im ready to move for a cleaner air city. I will be making lifestyle changes, to better my health.
